“It’s all for you, it’s all for you…” those were the words in a song I was listening to while running my routine 6 miles down the beautiful Newport Beach trail near the pier…a wide side walk built for runners, bikers, walkers…strollers…. I am surrounded by early risers on vacation mode, sitting on the balcony of their vacation rental looking out to the ocean with coffee in hand. Some alone, some cuddle up in a blanket with their loved ones, talking seriously about something. Perhaps a whole new conversation is initiated, very different from their day to day conversations back home…maybe this time is about something more serious, more meaningful, I can see it in their eyes. I imagine they are reflecting on their lives, past 20 years, talking about what they did right, what they did wrong…maybe they are talking about the uncertain but a hopeful future ahead..maybe about their children and the blessing they pour out in their lives. Whatever it is, I see that it was re-connecting them and they were finding a right place in their soul.
For me, this week marks the turning point in my life. A new chapter if you will. A fresh new start in my career as a new business owner, no longer tied to a 9-5 office ritual, a boss nor a steady pay check…but given a new blank check to write my own destiny. Frightened? Yes. Hopeful? Yes. Excited? Oh Yes! Overwhelmed? Uh huh. Where do I even begin?
The perfect place to begin was defined by my last two weeks of rest. I spent the time traveling with my family reflecting on our lives…cuddled up together, reflecting on the last past 20 years of marriage, talking about what we did right, what we did wrong…we talked about the uncertain but a hopeful future ahead…and we talked about our children and the blessings they pour out in our lives. We were re-connected, and we were finding a right place in our souls.
But nothing struck me more than the simple meaning of the song I was listening to this morning..“It’s all for you, it’s all for you…” I realized that what matters to me most is that this life is lived out not for myself but for Him. The creator, the author and the perfecter of my faith and my life. What matters to me most is to seek His purpose of what I was created to do…and do it very well…not for myself, but for Him.